Prom

So, prom night...

1815: Arrived at Parc 55 Hotel

1820: Made contact with Diana. She wasn't ready yet, so I went down to the lobby

1900: Arrival of a group of people I was familiar with. Began doing some recon. Located ballroom and picture taking area. And bathrooms

1915-1950: Hung around. Met some friends, some acquaintances, some new guys.

1950: Rendevous with Diana at her friends' room

2000: Pictures

2010-2130: Walk around, talk with friends, take pictures with our cams.

2130: First slow song, "I'm Yours", then "Truly Madly Deeply" right after. Slow danced entire time with Diana.

2140-2230: More walking. More pics

2230-2315: Split up for a bit. Diana goes to dance with friends. I walk around, talk with people I know.

2315: Third slow song. More dancing

2320: Split up again

2330: "Dirty Little Secrets" plays. Rock out.

2345-0000: Last three songs, slow dance-ish till the end.

0005: Hug and split up. She goes up, I go down

0007-0015: Hit the bar in lobby for pepsi.

0030: Ride arrives. Leave.


Highlights:
-The dancing
-She calling me "weird" and "insane"
-The dancing
-Again, the dancing
-The fedora

Lowlights:
-The freaking in the back of the stage (Thank the spirits it was so dark back there)
-Again, the freaking
-Once more, the freaking
-The nagging fear that I screwed up
-Lack of good topics for conversation ( My years of ignoring pop culture is coming back to bite me. Hard.)
-The end.

The rest of the Raiders say I should have kissed her on the cheek for goodnight. I think that's taking it a bit too far. I don't know...Everything is still so new to me. I feel like I finally just might have a connection to someone, but I fear going forward. What the hell am I supposed to do?

The way John's been talking to me, which is to go all out and be aggressive, seems too extreme. I don't want to push her away with arrogance and overconfidence, but I don't want to let her slip away with aloofness and a lack of courage. This is all going to my head.

I just wish that I could read the signs better. I wish I knew what to do. I wish I could make this right. Just being friends is good enough for me. Any further would be counted as a gift from the spirits.